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A page that updates periodically about what I'm up to and into right now. You are viewing the version of this page from September 29, 2025.

Making

Right now I'm working on one client gig and it's been pretty fun. Once that ships I will have nothing to do but sit around and consider how I haven't had an idea for an original piece in like four months.

I've been outlining a more structured lesson plan for my HTML class, which I would like to run online again before I try it out IRL. I'm gonna pitch it to the library and see if they'll give me a space.

Doing

The other weekend Lauren and I drove up to State College to visit her little brother, who is a few weeks into his freshman year. I have no personal attachment to that town but it is pretty, and the brother is doing well. It was a nice day.

Recently we've been watching a lot of movies at home as a leadup to Halloween; mostly library DVDs, and then I've been tossing up a little blurb on my Neocities. That's been nice as well, just checking out stuff you hear praised and checking if you also like it. As a guy who has never seen any movies it's a treat to catch up.

Thinking

Recently I have been feeling kind of crummy. I'm not sure if the medication losing its edge or if it's just that I've been living my life as a series of month-long Find Enough Money challenges that I try to win by rounding the 31st and not seeing an email from my bank about a zero or negative balance. Maybe they put anti-antidepressants in the cup noodles at Dollar Tree so nobody who has to eat them forgets.

To a certain immature part of me, there is nothing cooler in the world than having nothing to do. But there is also nothing worse in the world than having nothing to do. When I remember previous times like this (summer of 2020 when I lived cheap and slept 8AM to 2PM, summer of 2019 when I worked afternoons by myself in an empty building) I think of times that were at once wonderful and maddening. At the end of October it will be a year since I've been living on freelance. I am tired of it. I do not want to scrape a livelihood together by posting and emailing. I want to log on to a job and get the same amount of money every week so that I can unclench the part of my brain constantly reminding me I have no money.

I know I'll be okay eventually, but I wish being okay could hurry it up already.

Reading

I finished 2312, which I had fun with. A little less researchy and a little more pulpy than most KSR books, which I honestly found refreshing. He should get to make up weird stuff sometimes!

Still in the middle of Kathe Koja's The Cipher, which is still pretty good but I'm having trouble reading a lot of at once.

Listening

It's been, unsurprisingly, a month of repeat listens of old stuff. But as I write this I am listening to the new Technomarina comp and digging it.