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A page that updates periodically about what I'm up to and into right now. One of many. You are viewing the version of this page from November 14, 2024. When it's gone, it's gone.

Making

I'm back on that classic grind. Gig work has been kind of kicking my ass lately, or really it hasn't been much busier than usual in the studio but everything outside the studio has been seeping in. In some ways that's an encouragement to dive deeper into the work and in some ways it's making the work feel less meaningful.

To focus on the good, I finished an illustration the other day that people seemed to enjoy, and I'm also currently part of a secret group project that I think people will really dig once it's public. More on that in January maybe?

I spent a little time writing a post on the weblog about something kind of charming that happened to me, and then I spent about an order of magnitude more time finicking with the weblog's HTML to make it look better and read easier and finally work on a phone. I'm mostly satisfied with it now but I am having an issue where a horizontal scroll bar appears when I post it to Neocities that isn't there when I look at it locally.

Doing

Weekdays lately have been a 50/50 balance of working and kicking myself for not working. Where the needle is on any given day depends on how I slept and how much my head hurts.

Last weekend my little brother was in town. It was the first time I've seen him since he started college. He's 18 and acting like it. Our dad did not provide us with useful tools for processing emotions or sharing them with each other, but I hope the guy's doing alright.

We went to this big vintage fair at the convention center that our friend was tabling, and had a fun time rifling through racks of old T-shirts. I scored a huge Americna Bicentennial poster for ten bucks. We got to see the logo I did for the antique mall in use and printed on a big banner and tote bags, which was neat.

Thinking

Not doing so well, I think as I backspace this whole section except the opening clause that says "not doing so well." I dunno, man. Things are grim.

I've learned just enough about my own mindscape to see how busted it is, which at least means when I'm getting pissed off at everyone's posts or thinking too much about juicing comfort from the past I can yank the e-brake, say "I am depressed. This is a depression symptom," and go outside or do the dishes or something. Which doesn't make it go away, but if I'm lucky it makes me remember that I am alive and can do stuff besides mope. Nothing to do, ever really, except to just keep on moving.

Reading

I am still technically reading Gravity's Rainbow but I suspect that I am too stupid for it the same way I'm too stupid for David Lynch movies. It's kind of fun to read but I am constantly just thinking "what is this guy talking about." Then again I'm only 12% through it so I guess I'll get back to it. Believe it or not I haven't felt very compelled to read this week.

Listening

Fortunately my buddy Jason dropped another What I'm Listening To, which has given me some new stuff to check out. This Soshi Takeda album is really nice; perfect energy for today (it's rainy outside and I have too much to do).

As I write this I'm on my second listen of the day to Meet Your Maker by Club Kuru. These guys are so good.